an entry

it's been a pretty busy week and a half, but not so busy that it should preclude me from updating with a good frequency. the end of the month is always a little crazy at work, as i am a pretend accountant but we have a real close at the end of every month. i think the real reason is that i have a harder time writing when things in my emotional life are feeling pretty okay. black despair and horribleness found in every situation? WRITE ABOUT IT ON THE INTERNET! feeling manic and silly and ridiculous? WRITE SILLY STUFF ON THE INTERNET!

i am trying to work on experiencing my emotions and not just trying to analyze them intellectually until they go away or i am distracted by something else. so i will also try to write on a more regular basis.

that reminds me of something my mom used to yell at my dad for; he would call me a space cadet and she would freak out on him, going on about self fulfilling prophecies, and clearly convinced that assigning a role in childhood attaches that role to the kid for life. i think she's right, but it's weird that that's what i remember. their argument about whether to use some semi-cruel endearment. i don't know if my mom remembers that. she used to be a huge feminist, but now she reads mystery novels and sells mary kay.

RIP Rich Eaves, 1962-2008

a friend of mine's father passed away very unexpectedly in his sleep, almost a month ago. he was only 45. my friend made this video tribute to his dad 24 hours after his death and it's amazing. i started crying before the images even started. his dad was a HUGE journey fan, and well, you can tell in this video.
(starts about a minute in)



just wanted to remind everyone to call their 'rents and tell them how much they love them.

matt damon.

matt damon, who i thought was ugly until the bourne identity, and then i realized that he was gorgeous and super sexy, has gained a bunch of weight and started parting his hair all fluffy like a child of the 70's.\


basically matt damon looks exactly like my dad now.


YIKES.

it's for some shitty movie role. check out www.wwtdd.com for a much more accurate and snarky summary than i can provide, because i am lazy.

also, we've been out of toilet paper for two days at my apartment. i've come home well past 2 am both nights... apparently my roommate has no biological functions which require it. or he's been using the toilet scrubber to wipe. NEITHER OF THOSE SCENARIOS ARE PLEASANT TO CONSIDER.

i will try to remember to bring some home tonight.